No one can be that shallow! Can they?

on the way home from longrain

It feels like I have been a doing a lot of retrospect lately. And by retrospect, I mean just looking back at how things were and how things are. How people and places change and rationalising whether the changes are good or bad or simply indifferent.

But I think the root of this retrospect is the lack of direction, drive and dreams in my life. It feels like I have everything I have set out to get. I blame this on Christmas. It is that season again where people run around getting people stupid presents or hopefully, something the giftee might have wanted. Reading articles about how poor people are struggling to buy their children the latest toys, ipods and clothes in hope that their children don't get ostracize only emphasises the emptiness that I feel. What do I want for Christmas? And more recently, what do I want for my birthday?

Unlike the previous year, I didn’t feel it was necessary to have a wish list; partly because I have everything I needed and because I wanted something no one would have been able to purchase for me.

In retrospect, I said this a while ago: "Now that I've experienced fashionable restaurants - there will be a long list to get through: Longrain, MG, Imperial, Salt, Rockpool, Iceberg, Maccas on George, Est, Tetsuya's and many more. A list I will add to my goals and pass off as another symptom of affluenza. " April 11, 2004

And on Friday, I finally got my belated birthday present. We had dinner at longrain. By we, I mean a few close friends and some excellent food. I can’t begin to describe the food except that the reviews and awards do justify the quality that is longrain. Put it this way; if I wasn’t dining in a five star restaurant, I would of used my hands and cleaned the plates. But more importantly, I was able to experience this with people close to me.

Food to me is everything. I defines who I am and who I want to become. And being able to experience this with people around was an experience in itself. WS probably got annoyed at me on the way home, but there is no other way to put it; I was really happy. For once in my life, happiness was not derived from materiality or the pain and suffering of others. But rather, from being with friends experiencing something that is as good as longrain.

Looking back, I am still happy and want to thank everyone for sharing this experience with me.

posted by tykang @ 12/12/2004 04:15:00 PM